The silver lining, I have lost 12 pounds in 5 weeks. Of course, this is due to never-ending stomach ache that is making my meals smaller and eliminating sweets and foods with no nutritional value. But I cannot ignore the fear. I search for the primary cause, so I can mitigate it and stop the stomach aches and stress. Oddly enough, the word cancer is not causing the fear, my mom survived two fights with cancer. The fear is stemming from the thought of ingesting all of the drugs into my body when I have a history of drug allergies.
Again, I attack the problem with logic and actionable steps. I find an allergist that takes me seriously and is interested in testing each drug as a stand alone to see what my body does. Then I start looking into the homeopathic ways of dealing with the symptoms; chief among them, diet, acupuncture, and exercise. I start by developing a diet plan and moving to a primarily plant-based diet. I have received recommendations for a good local acupuncturist. And of course, finally start to move toward a regular exercise plan. I have talked about doing it, now I need to act.
As I take each of these steps I feel calmer. The stomach is not so jumpy, and I sleep a little better at night. When I talk to people, they are amazed at how calm and matter of fact I am. It is real, not just a face I am putting on. For me information and action make me feel in control, and positive about the outcome. My mother proved to me time and again that your mental outlook is more than 50% of the battle of coming out the other side as good if not better than before. Here is to keeping positive and focused on success.